Like most people, I want a person who will love and cherish me. Also, like most people, I'm kinda self-conscious. This is me: [link] (yeah I look dumb, I was talking) See? I'm not the most beautiful person in the world, but I'm not a complete toad either. I don't feel very interesting or intelligent, but I do try. If nothing else, I'm still a person and I still have feelings! Which is why this pissed me off!

I had a guy telling me how beautiful he thought I was. For weeks he's been flirting with me. We've hung out and all. He even asked me out. It made me feel good. It's nice to feel that you're wanted. It's nice to think that you have something to offer someone. I felt special.

My sis has come to live with us and all the sudden he started ignoring me completely. What's worse is that he's hitting on her big time right in front of me! He even uses the same lame lines! Now that I look on it, I realize he had called me by her name several times. I dismissed it cause everyone confuses the two of us. I see now that he really wasn't interested in me to begin with. I feel so stupid. If I felt I had any value before, it's gone. This isn't the first time this has happened either. I suppose I should be used to it. Still, it hurts. I mean, what am I? A substitute crush?

It kinda makes me think of an episode of Ouran High School Host Club, the one where the girl is fine dating either of the twins. I've heard that we look similar, but that's no reason for guys to bunch us together. Either is fine, freaking jerks! If you like me, pursue me! If you like her, don't pursue me! Pursue her! Don't do this "I'll take whichever one is available" crap! We are not the same and neither of us should ever be used as a backup.

Poor thing. Guys do this crap to my sis too and she's gotten it worse.