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Pretending Everything Is Okay

Sun Dec 13, 2009, 2:29 PM
You ever had something really sudden, unexpected, and downright horrible happen? Then you try and focus on something else to keep your mind off of it. You succeed...only to remember that it still happened. Nothing has changed.

My dad is in San Antonio. He was packing the last of our stuff with the hopes of moving up here this Tuesday. Our first Christmas in our own house. Very exciting.

We got a call last night. My dad was shopping and collapsed in the store. EMS came and took him to the hospital. Turns out he had a stroke. Early this morning they did surgery and removed a clot from his brain...only to discover that he has another in his throat. They won't be able to remove the second until he recovers from the first surgery. In the meantime my dad is completely blind, unable to speak, and paralyzed on his right side. Fortunately my brother lives there and is able to be with him.

I'm not going ask, "Why did this have to happen now?" Things like this happen. There's no set schedule.
I'm not going to ask, "What do I do?" I already know that presently I can do nothing but pray and hope for the best. I certainly wish to go see him.
I do believe he'll be okay, even if he can never get back to 100%. As long as he lives, that's what matters the most to me.

Not sure why I'm even posting this. I suppose it's because it is on my mind. I've tried watching movies to distract me, but I'm still worried. I think I'm gonna try drawing. That at least is a way to express myself.

  • Mood: Worried

I saw it and LIKED it!

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 24, 2009, 6:59 PM


New Moon
I watched New Moon, and I loved it. I think my favorite part was listening to my sister's comments and such. It went sorta like this:

-Jacob is hot!
-Wow! He's so freaking built!
-Kiss him Bella.
-Just a little closer...
-Boo! They should have kissed!
-Edward is so ugly...
-Hey! Is that the guy from Sweeney Todd?!
-WTF!?!?! Bella is such a *****!!! You can't say, "I love you, but don't make me choose cause I'll choose him!" That's not love!! This is stupid! She's stupid!!! I HATE HER!! This is such a disappointment!! She should have gone with Jacob! He's hotter!!! Poor Jacob is so much better than stupid Edward!

She liked the movie just as much as I did. Lol! But what made me happy was that she said everything while watching the movie that I said when I read the books. That would be "Jacob is awesome", "Edward's a loser", and "Bella is a stupid *****! She had no right to hurt Jacob like that!!" It made the whole thing for me. XD My sister has gone and joined me on Team Jacob! Heehee!!

Naruto
Spoiler Warning! I'm about to oogle over the latest chapters of Naruto. If you don't wanna know, don't read on!! XD Lol! Cause I spoil things! Heehee!

I want the next chapter to come out already. I mean, it's Tuesday...I think they come out on Tuesday. I'm waiting for the scanlated version though. Yes, I stoop that low just to know what happens next! XD I think chapter 473 is next. Waiting... Goodness. I want Killer Bee to live!! Even more than I want everybody else to live (except Naruto and Gaara). Kisame, it's not personal, but DIE!!! DIE!!! DDDIIIIIEEEEEE!!!!! I'm so glad your sword turned on you! XD Killer Bee has to live! LIVE DANG YOU!!! XD

Anyway, I'm wondering what's gonna happen when Gaara finally finds Naruto and them. I'm kinda shocked with him. I know he cares for Naruto and all for beating the crap out of him and bringing him to his senses...but seriously?! It's like he doesn't know him at all. Gaara, I know you wanna protect Naruto, but do you really think he's just gonna let you guys hide him? Gaara, seriously, Naruto's gonna have a cow when he hears this. A COW!!! Yes...

Also, I hope Sakura finds Sasuke. I really hope she does. That way she can be all like "Sasuke, return to the light for me and Naruto's sake." Then he'll be all like, "Heck no, Stupid!" Then she'll go all noble and be like, "Fine, I'll just have to kill you in order to defend the village!" Then a really lame battle will occur and Sasuke will kill Sakura. X3 And then Naruto will find out and be all sad and angry. Then he'll stop wasting precious time and KILL SASUKE!! XD Yes, Sakura... Find Sasuke...find him... Kukukuku!


  • Mood: Humor
  • Reading: Naruto Chapter 472
  • Watching: Deja Vu
  • Eating: Hamburger Helper
  • Drinking: Water (soon hopefully)

Things I Think Are Cool, That You Think Are Lame

Journal Entry: Thu Nov 19, 2009, 4:47 PM


Question: Why am I supposed to tag people if they are already gonna take it for opening this?
Answer: Be a rebel, break the following rules!


Rule #1: If you open this you take it.
Rule #2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks.
Rule #3: Tag 25 random people.

Answer: True or False
Q: Kissed someone on your friends list?: False
Q: Been arrested?: False
Q: Do you like someone?: False
Q: Held a snake?: True
Q: Been suspended from school?: False
Q: Sang karaoke?: False
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?: True
Q: Laughed until you started crying?: True
Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue?: True
Q: Kissed in the rain?: False
Q: Sang in the shower?: False
Q: Sat on a roof top?: True
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?: False
Q: Broken a bone?: False
Q: Shaved your head?: False
Q: Played a prank on someone?: True
Q: Shot a gun?: True
Q: Donated Blood?: False


Last Person
1. You hung out with?: Linda
2. You texted?: Moroni
3. You were in a car with?: Linda
4. Went to the movies with?: Daddy, Mommy, Nathaniel, and Linda
5. Person you went to shop with?: Linda
6. You talked on the phone?: Moroni
7. Made you laugh?: Nathaniel
8. You hugged?: Nathaniel

Answer Truthfully
1. Sun or moon?: Moon
2. Winter or Fall?: Winter (for obvious reasons)
3. Left or Right?: Right
4. Sunny or rainy?: Rainy
5. Where do you live?: Not where you live
6. Club or pub?: Neither
7. Are there 1 or 2 people who you can always trust and rely on?: Yes
8. Do you want to get married?: Yes
9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: Twirl
10. What time is it?: 6:28pm
11. Are you afraid of commitment?: Not really
12. What is your greatest hope/wish?: To create something unforgettable
13. Do you cook?: I burn things really well...
14. Current mood?: Bored out of my mind @_@
15. Color of underwear?: Pink...so sue me


In the Last 48 Hours, Have You
1. Sang?: No
2. Listened to music?: Yes
3. Danced Crazy?: Never
4. Cried?: Yes...actually
5. Liked someone you can't have?: I sorta gave up on that kind of stuff, so no

25 Firsts
1. Who was your first prom date?: Homeschooled...didn't have one
2. Who was your first roommate?: Never moved out
3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time?: Never had alcohol
4. What was your first job?: Sales Rep...I think
5. What was your first car?: Hot wheels
6. When did you go to your first funeral and viewing?: When my grandpa died
7. Who was your first grade teacher?: Mrs. Ba...something rather
9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane?: Utah
10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time?: Never
11. Who was your first best friend?: Desarae (never learned how to spell it)
12. Who was your first best friend in high school?: Homeschooled...but Kayla was my friend at the time
13. Where was your first sleepover?: Don't remember
14. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?: Mommy
15. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or groomsman?: Hasn't happened
16. What is the first thing you did when you got up this morning?: Rolled over and fell back asleep
17. What was the first concert you went to?: Never been to one
18. What was the last concert you went to?: Never been
19. First tattoo or piercing?: Earring
20. First celebrity crush?: Jonathon Taylor Thomas (at least I think that was his name)
21. Current celebrity crush?: Doesn't have one
22. First crush?: Marqus Something-rather
23. Current crush?: T_T Don't have one
24. First time you tied your shoe laces? Probably when I was 5 or 6..or 4

Seven names you go by
1. Winter
2. Ter
3. Terd
4. Terminator
5. Puck
6. Your Master
7. Minion

Three things you are wearing right now:
1. A green legend of Zelda shirt (I'm so awesome)
2. tan/grey sweat pant things
3. White excersize bra...you already know about the pink undies XD


Three things you want very badly at the moment:
1. Inspiration
2. Naruto Chapter 473
3. Ice cream


Three people who will probably fill this out:
1. You
2. Me
3. and Cheryl (Yes! I singled you out!)


Two things you did last night:
1. Slept
2. Chilled with my brother <3


Two things you ate last night:
1. Ice cream
2. An apple


Two people you last talked to on the phone:
1. Moroni
2. Daddy


Three things you are going to do tomorrow:
1. Be lazy
2. Draw (if I ever stop with #1)
3. Watch New Moon. I'm planning on it.


Two longest car rides
1. Texas to Utah
2. San Antonio to Amarillo


Favorite beverages:
1. Water
2. Chocolate milk
3. Vanilla Coke

  • Mood: Hungry
  • Listening to: Dawn of the Iconoclast by Dead Can Dance
  • Reading: Naruto Chapter 472
  • Watching: Naruto Shippuden
  • Eating: Ice Cream (soon)
  • Drinking: Chocolate Milk (soon)

To Every Guy

Journal Entry: Thu Nov 19, 2009, 3:47 PM


♥ To every guy that said, "Sex can wait"...
♥ To every guy that said, "You're beautiful"...
♥ To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her...
♥ To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down...
♥ To every guy who has given her flowers just because that's how he rolls...
♥ To every guy that said he would die for her...
♥ To every guy that really would...
♥ To every guy that did what she wanted to die for...
♥ To every guy that cried in front of her...
♥ To every guy that she cried in front of...
♥ To every guy that holds hands with her.
♥ To every guy that kisses her with meaning..
♥ To every guy that hugs her when she's sad...
♥ To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all...
♥ To every guy who would give their jacket up for her...
♥ To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe...
♥ To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes...
♥ To every guy that would give his seat up...
♥ To every guy that just wants to cuddle...
♥ To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what...
♥ To every guy who told his secrets to her...
♥ To every guy that showed how much he cared through every word and every breath...
♥ To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one...
♥ To every guy that believed in her dreams...
♥ To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them...
♥ To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams...
♥ To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door...
♥ To every guy that gave his heart...
♥ To every guy who prays that she is happy even if he's not with her...

________________________________________ ______________________________

Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore. And because of this, there are not many left out there. I guarantee 90% of the men on your page will not repost this because they care more about their image.

- If you are a nice guy, repost this in your journal with the title: "Nice guys STILL finish last";

- If you are a girl that thinks every guy should treat a girl this way, repost this in your journal with the title: "To Every Guy".

________________________________________ ______________________________

I got this from :iconenglishknight: and :iconbleedinginshadows:. I thought it seemed like a good thing to repost. Also, I wanted to try out the skin thing. :meow:

  • Mood: Peaceful
  • Listening to: Cantara by Dead Can Dance
  • Reading: Naruto Chapter 472
  • Watching: Naruto Shippuden

Updates and a Question for Those Who Care

Sat Oct 10, 2009, 7:47 PM
The Question

My mom mentioned to me that she found this site where you can sell your art and stuff. She was suggesting I look into that. It kind of got me thinking about commissions. I honestly don't feel that my abilities are quite where I want them, but I figure I've got to start somewhere and at some point in time. To me it would be interesting to give it a whack and see what happens.

My Question Is: How many people would be interested in commissioning me (did I even say that right?) and if you are interested, how much would you be willing to pay?

The Updates

My family and I did move to Amarillo. Craziest thing ever! We found a place and got all moved up in ONE WEEK! Well, five days, but STILL!! ONE WEEK! I didn't know people could get moved that fast. ...and just as I thought would happen...it came about so fast I didn't even get to say goodbye to my friends. I'm sure they'll all beat the snot out me next time they see me. I know...shame on me. I feel terrible about it.

Anyway, we moved up at the end of August...about the 28th I think. It was so crazy fast. I admitt that I was really angry at first and this house is so different than what I'm used to. I've calmed down and such though. Settled in. It's really nice here. We are fortunate to be located within about 2 blocks of every store you'd ever need to visit. I swear if I threw a rock, I'd probably manage to hit one of them.

The people here seem friendly too. At least the ones I've talked to...which I'll admitt aren't many. The weather is wonderful too. My first thought as I climbed out of the car was, "Whoa! No humidity!". Of course it's all cold now. I wasn't prepared for winter...which is probably ironic since it's my name... We all had to get coats...real coats. Craziness! I need boots too...or something that's a little warmer than flip flops. I have shoes...but I want boots. Somehow it seems wrong to use shoes in cold weather, especially when you could be wearing boots.

Hmmm... I think that's all of the updates I have. Yes, I haven't exactly been keeping up with my DA stuff. Moving is fun and exciting, but it also tends to put me into a huge slump. I'm trying to get out of it. :meow:

  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: Dareh Meyod by O.A.R.
  • Watching: Naruto Shippuden
  • Eating: Poptarts
  • Drinking: Water

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