The Question

My mom mentioned to me that she found this site where you can sell your art and stuff. She was suggesting I look into that. It kind of got me thinking about commissions. I honestly don't feel that my abilities are quite where I want them, but I figure I've got to start somewhere and at some point in time. To me it would be interesting to give it a whack and see what happens.

My Question Is: How many people would be interested in commissioning me (did I even say that right?) and if you are interested, how much would you be willing to pay?

The Updates

My family and I did move to Amarillo. Craziest thing ever! We found a place and got all moved up in ONE WEEK! Well, five days, but STILL!! ONE WEEK! I didn't know people could get moved that fast. ...and just as I thought would happen...it came about so fast I didn't even get to say goodbye to my friends. I'm sure they'll all beat the snot out me next time they see me. I know...shame on me. I feel terrible about it.

Anyway, we moved up at the end of August...about the 28th I think. It was so crazy fast. I admitt that I was really angry at first and this house is so different than what I'm used to. I've calmed down and such though. Settled in. It's really nice here. We are fortunate to be located within about 2 blocks of every store you'd ever need to visit. I swear if I threw a rock, I'd probably manage to hit one of them.

The people here seem friendly too. At least the ones I've talked to...which I'll admitt aren't many. The weather is wonderful too. My first thought as I climbed out of the car was, "Whoa! No humidity!". Of course it's all cold now. I wasn't prepared for winter...which is probably ironic since it's my name... We all had to get coats...real coats. Craziness! I need boots too...or something that's a little warmer than flip flops. I have shoes...but I want boots. Somehow it seems wrong to use shoes in cold weather, especially when you could be wearing boots.

Hmmm... I think that's all of the updates I have. Yes, I haven't exactly been keeping up with my DA stuff. Moving is fun and exciting, but it also tends to put me into a huge slump. I'm trying to get out of it.

Naruto
I finally started watching Naruto. I tried watching it a few years ago, but after the second episode I decided it was crap. Then about two weeks ago I started watching it with my brother. Now I can't get enough of it! When I was watching with my brother we were pretty far into it, so I had to go back to the beginning and watch the episodes to understand what was happening. It's been amazing!

At first I was all like, "Go Naruto! You can be Hokage! Use your demon fox powers and KILL THEM ALL!". I admitt that I love it when he makes a promise and all goes "Believe it!". I swear it makes my day everytime. Heehee! I just wanna scream back "I BELIEVE IT!".

As it continued on, I grew to love a lot of the other characters (not as much as Naruto though). I love seeing Lee and Guy go on about how superly cool they are. Every time they pop up on the screen I squeal! I also love it when Shikamaru is all like, "What a drag". Heehee! Those words foretell butt kicking! It's always interesting when he gets involved. I especially love the Pervy Sage. Him and his "research". Kukuku!

Anyway, despite their obvious coolness, they are nothing compared to Naruto. He owns all life! At least that's what I thought till Gaara showed up. I swear to you now, Gaara is the personification of all that is awesome! I mean it!! The first thing Gaara does in the morning is bathe in a monstrously super amazing tub of everlastingly cool awesomeness. The guy eats, sleeps, breathes, and even SWEATS awesomeness. People kill themselves trying to attain the awesomeness he holds in a single strand of hair! He is so cool that he makes his lame siblings look cool!! He is that cool! Trust me when I say this! Gaara owns your soul!!!! Believe it!

Ah, Naruto makes me so happy. The only the way that show could possibly be more cool, would be if Naruto and Gaara joined forces and killed Sasuke. Hahaha! You can believe that too!!


The Real News
My parents have decided that they would like to buy a house and move. I know this may seem unimportant to most of you, but it's a big deal to me. They are presently looking at Amarillo. I'm gonna miss my friends. I haven't even told them yet. Part of me wants to hold off on the telling till our plans are more set in stone. The other part realizes that the longer I put it off, the less of a heads up they'll have. My family has never been one to take things slow exactly. Rather, once a choice is made, we'll be gone. So, I'm not sure what to do. I don't even really wanna tell them. It'll be too hard. I can think of two people straight up who won't like this news at all. I don't want to hurt them. Man, I'm going to miss them all so much.

I am excited though. Kinda makes me feel guilty...like if maybe I shouldn't be happy cause I'll be leaving them. I am so excited though. I'll be able to have my own room in our own house! Do you get that?! I won't have to share a room anymore. I will have complete control of who comes in and out and of what goes where! It'll be better than that too! Since it'll be our own house, I'll get to do things with my room that I could never do in a rented house! I have some plans already! Haha. We haven't even picked out a house yet and I've already got ideas. Heehee!

First, I figure most rooms have least one wall with no doors or windows on it. I want to reserve that wall for life sized paintings of characters I like. Heehee! I should like to paint Gaara (Naruto) and Chad (Bleach) up for sure, but I also want to paint some of my own characters. Taikeru for sure is going up. He's more important than the others. I wouldn't mind painting Midnightra and Daedalus either. Heehee! If I put Gaara up, I oughtta put Naruto up too. Maybe I can paint one of the scenes where they were fighting! That would be so cool!!!

I was also thinking of furniture type things. I mean I'd have to wait on a lot of things, but it would be cool to get one of those beds that have cubby holes and drawers underneath it. I've seen some in magazines and they really fascinate me. I mostly like them cause I'd be able to put stuff in them without having to clutter my room with shelves. I could have all my stuff right there! That'll leave more clear wall space for me to paint on! Heeheehee!

The rest of my walls I'd like to leave normal. I mean with just normal paint jobs. Not sure what color scheme I'd want. I was thinking white walls with soft purple borders. Nothing too complicated. I dunno, I'll just have to wait to see what kind of room I get. I had originally thought of painting all my walls with characters I like, but that seems like a foolish idea to me now. I mean, if every wall is painted beautifully, then I won't want to push my furniture against them for fear of covering cool parts up. I refuse to have a room with all the furniture crowding in the center like some kind of island.


100 Theme Challenge
I'm still planning on completeing the 100 Theme Challenge. If you are interested in seeing how far I've come so far, you can check it out here: [link]
It's coming slowly, but I will finish it!
Believe it!

Tagged by

1 Post these rules.
2 Each tagged person must post 5 things about themselves on their journal.
3 At the end, you have to choose and tag 5 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4 Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5 No tag-backs.


1. I believe this is the third time I've tackled this tag
2. I think I give people the impression I'm giving them the cold shoulder, but in reality it's just that I feel awkward when there's a lot of people around
3. I know McDonald's is famous for their fries, but I think they have the worst fries ever! Jack-in-the-Box has the best fries in my opinion
4. While there are colors I prefer above others, I like pretty much every color. Yes, that includes pink. Deal with it
5. I'm 23 years old. I've never had sex, only been on like 5 dates, never smoked, never drunk, never done drugs, I despise yaoi (all hot men shall belong to me!), I'm under the impression that guys who wear their pants down to their knees have de-evolved into gorillas, I hate it when people bash the color pink (for crying out loud it's just a shade of red!), I dislike dogs (but I like wolves, coyotes, and foxes), cat's deserve their own holiday for being so awesome, when I say "I love anime" I don't mean every single stupid show, and one day I will rule the world. ...funny thing is that I couldn't think of five things at first...then I couldn't think of only five things...

I TAG~
Nobody, you've all been spared

Stolen from

[Relationship Status] Doesn't have one
[Parents still together] Yes
[Siblings] 2 younger brothers and one younger sister
[Pets] 1 cat named 00Pobo, or Pobo for short

FAVORITES
[Color] I dunno, purple is cool
[Number] 25
[Animal] Wolves and others
[Book] Howl's Moving Castle
[Flowers] Red roses

DO YOU
[Have Tattoos?] Nope
[Cheat On Tests?] Twice and I've felt terrible about it my whole life
[Like Roller Coasters?] Hell no
[Wish You Could Live Somewhere Else?] Yes...I'm so tired of this heat and humidity!
[Clean?] When it's absolutely necessary
[Own A Cell Phone?] Yes, but it's down and out

CURRENT
[Hair] Long and dark
[Playing] Nothing
[RePlaying] Nothing
[Believe There Is Life On Other Planets] Yes
[Hate Yourself?] Occasionally
[Collect Anything?] Nutcrackers and coins
[Like Your Handwriting?] It's terrible, but yes I love it

LOVE
[First Crush] Marqus
[You Believe In Love At First Sight?] I dunno
[You Believe In "The One"?] Generally yes

ARE YOU
[Sarcastic] Depends
[Shy] Usually
[Talkative] Rarely

WOULD YOU RATHER…
[Pierce Your Nose Or Belly Button?] Belly button
[Be Serious Or Funny] Depends on the situation, but generally funny

ABOUT YOU...
[What Time Is It?] 5:01 pm
[Name] Winter

WHAT DO YOU WANT:
[Where Do You Want To Live] Germany...if not that, then I'll settle for any place with snow and a nearby library
[How Many Kids Do You Want] 2
[What Kind Of Job Do You Want] If I knew that, I wouldn't be here. Something related to art or books

LAST TIME YOU:
[Bought Something] Today
[Gotten Sick] Don't remember
[Sang] Sunday
[Had You Hair cut] Uh...a couple months ago
[Watched cartoons] Was watching Naruto yesterday
[Lied To Someone] Probably sometime within the last hour I'm sure

IN THE LAST FEW DAYS WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON THAT…
[Slept In Your Bed] It's only ever me
[Saw A Movie With You] My mom

HAVE YOU EVER…
[Been To California] When I was a kid
[Been To Europe] Yep, I went to Germany
[Wished You Were The Opposite Sex] Everyday...I bet I could pull it off...just gotta hack my hair off

HONESTLY…
1. [Honestly, what color is your underwear?] Grey
2. [Honestly, whats on your mind right now?] Lots of things. Where am I going in life? What should I do? What is gonna happen now?
3. [Honestly, what are you doing right now?] Filling this out
4. [Honestly, do you think you are attractive?] Not unless I pretty myself up...which never happens...so no
5. [Honestly, have you done something bad today?] Not really
6. [Honestly, do you watch Disney Channel?] Nope
7. [Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?] Nope
8. [Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?] Relaxing
9. [Honestly, do you bite your nails?] Sometimes, but not often
10. [Honestly, what is your mood right now?] So so
11. [Honestly, who do you want to see at this very moment?] Naruto
12.[Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?] I'm pretty simple, no deep dark interesting secrets
13.[Honestly, do you hate someone right now?] Nope
14.[Honestly, are you satisfied with life?] Nope
15.[Honestly, do you like someone?] Ha! That's part of my problem. Nobody seems to quite reach the mark...they are all nice guys, I just don't feel that connection. Even the guys who have every quality on my list and more, I still just don't feel that connection. Must be something wrong with me
16.[Honestly, does anyone like you?] I think so

EVERYONE’S CONFESSIONS...
[ ] I still watch cartoons on Saturdays
[ ] I eat Froot Loops.
[ ] I go trick or treating.
[ ] I’ve taken a bubble bath in the last month.
[ ] I have water balloon fights with my friends
[ ] I still believe in Santa
[x] Mommy’s still the coolest person ever
[x] Sleep till noon
[ ] I still pass out little Valentines day cards on Valentines Day.
[ ] The boy/girl that sits next to me is cute.
[ ] still drink apple juice.
[ ] There are monsters under my bed.
[x] I can’t sleep with the lights off.
[x] I can’t sleep with the lights on.
[ ] I still like piggy back rides. (If only people would give them to me ><.
[ ] Boys/girls still have cooties.

I know I picked that I can't sleep with the lights on and that I can't sleep with the lights off. It's cause it's true. Too much light and I go crazy, but I get scared in total darkness.

I've been wanting to try and tackle this thing. I don't know if I'll ever finish it (or start for that matter), but I'm going to take the first step and post it.

2/100 completed

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams [link]
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm [link]
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

The other night I couldn't sleep and I wound up laying in bed thinking till like 5am. This is usually a bad thing. It's sorta when my head fills with the worst of thoughts and there isn't anyone there to help me get rid of them. The topic in my mind this time was death.

I hate death. I hate seeing it. I hate that it even exists. Mind you, I am religious so I do believe in life after death. I know a corpse is just the body and that the person's spirit lives on. I know they'll be resurrected some day and be whole again. I know that. It's just the actually dying part that bothers me.

So I was thinking about death, my own in particular and was just feeling really down and honestly frightened by the idea. I always imagine myself dying in some really horrible way for some reason and being completely alone. So, while I was freaking myself out with all these terrible depressing thoughts and fears of mine I remembered an experience I had when I was about 11 or 12.

I had been jumping on a trampoline with my siblings and some friends of mine. I experienced what we called a double bounce. That's basically when someone lands in such a way that it causes you to be tossed really high into the air. It's fun, or least I thought so at the time. Well, this time I was tossed, only I didn't go up, I went out.

It's maybe a little hard to describe what happened next. I was flying through the air and the first thing going through my mind was this solid knowledge that I was going to crash head first into the ground and die. There wasn't really a doubt in my mind. I could already see in my mind the blood and chunks of my brain. It could imagine the frantic movement that would be buzzing around me, my friends, my siblings, my parents and my friend's mom, all of them trying to save my already extinguished life. I could see them crying and I felt terrible cause I knew there was nothing they could do. I was a goner.

Then I had this thought. What happens next? I'd learned about heaven and hell and I wasn't entirely sure I'd qualify for the better of the two.

Then this most amazing of things happened. I quite literally saw my life flash before my eyes. It was like a replay of every great moment in my life, good and bad. It could have lasted for hours for all I saw in that single second. For that brief moment my whole life came into perspective. I realized that the memories that most filled my mind, the most precious to me, were of my family and my siblings, green grass, blue skies, laughter, smiles. All those other things that I thought were important to me, weren't. No drawings, no school grades, no super expensive toys, they meant nothing to me. The only thing that mattered was the people whose lives I had touched. Not what they did for me, it was what I did for them that mattered. I then felt a peace like none other I have ever experienced. I thought, "Okay, God. I lived a good life. I'm happy. Whatever you want."

Then by some great miracle, I don't even know how it happened, my ankle got caught in the springs and I wound up dangling upside down. My head was a mere inch from the hard ground. I could feel the grass cushioning my head. I was surprised to say the least. I think an angel must've grabbed my ankle and shoved it in the springs cause there was a netting around them to prevent things from getting caught in there. I walked away without a scratch.

As I recalled this experience, I felt such relief. I thought, maybe death isn't so bad. Granted, I can't say I won't be tortured or experience pain, but at least I know the passing is pleasant... assuming of course that I've still got more good memories than bad. This sorta made me think on now though. It's been over 10 years... I wonder, if I had the same experience now, have I made new memories that would bring me joy, or have I gone and filled myself with the bad ones?

Anyway, I wanted to share this experience with ya'll cause it means a lot to me, and I really love you guys. I am curious though, have any of you had similar experiences? If so, what was it like for you?